There can be only one.

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So my kids came back to my house yesterday and informed me that they have two Dads.

Bullshit.

I’ve earned the title of Dad. I’ve been there for both of those boys since birth. I’ve put everything forward in their best interest and I’ve been the one to take care of them.

I don’t care what anybody says. If two people have a child together and later go their own ways, there’s only one Mom and only one Dad. The only possible exception to that rule is if one or the other stops taking an active role in the kids’ lives… at which point it’s still a gamble if you want to do that.

When I begin dating again, my kids will not be informed that they have two Moms. Mom is Mom, and that’s the way it is. Nobody has the right to take that away from her, and nobody has the right to take it away from me. Especially when I’m as active in their lives as I am.

Send 2005 to Hell

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So, does anybody care that it’s the end of 2005?

I know I sure as hell don’t. This year just plain sucked. So many events kicked me in the a$$ that I don’t even want to think about it. I can hardly wait until I can close the door on this piece of shit year and move on with my life.

The first half of 2005 definitely sucked because I was working too much, and when I finally got through that, I had the rug pulled out from under me when my ex-fiancée moved out without warning. Then I had to spend a lot of time without the kids until we finally reached an agreement that allowed me to see them most of the time (over 80% actually). That was the one good thing that happened; without access to my kids, I don’t know where I would be right now. Love you, boys!

I have a lot of great hopes for 2006. I think it will be the year that I can finish putting my life back together and get moving forward again. I look forward to spending a lot of quality time with the boys. Perhaps I can get some bills paid down. Maybe I’ll meet a woman who can actually treat me decently and respect me for who and what I am. Hey, with any luck I can buy a house so that the kids will have a place to call home.

As for people who disliked some of the decisions I’ve made or how I handled some of the situations I was in… well, too bad. And to people who put themselves first without any thought for others, shame on you.

Most of all, to my boys: I love you no matter what. I’ll always be here for you regardless of what happens. Every minute you’re away from me hurts. I’m sorry your Mom made the decisions that she did, but that’s her choice. All we can do is try our best to enjoy life as much as we can. I can hardly wait to see how the next year turns out for you, because you’ve both come so far so fast.

Merry Christmas

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“Ho ho ho, you sniveling little… I mean, Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!”

— overheard yesterday evening in my living room as Santa delivered presents

Dell 30 monitor

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Mother of God.

Just when I thought I was done… Dell is introducing a 30” widescreen flat panel. This is the kind of forced upgrade that just drives a computer geek like me nuts. Or it would if I cared. 6” more doesn’t do a whole lot for me at this point since I already own a 2405FPW… but if I was still on a 17” or 19”, this would be the one I’d want.

Money isn’t that important, is it?

30 Inches of Awesomeness

Google + AOL = Nightmare

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Everything AOL touches turns to crap.

I think that the idea behind AOL is simple: make things easy to use and available to everybody. That’s not a bad thought in general, but AOL manages to do it in a way that ticks me off… every time.

So now that Google and AOL are moving past first base, some of the ugly details are starting to come out. For example, this post on Slashdot that suggests that they will be adding logos and graphics to a lot of the advertising that is shown on the Google sites.

This concerns me greatly. I don’t care for advertising any more than anybody else, but I recognize it’s value and understand that in today’s society it is essential to sell products. However, Google has always done it so much better with the text ads. They’re non-obtrusive, easy to deal with, and sometimes very useful. I can pay attention to them or not, and I feel like I get a choice.

Now, I don’t want to start knocking on this change until I see it go live, but I will say that I’m worried about the direction this is going. Yes, Google is a public company now, and they need to increase shareholder revenue… but, try and do so without ticking off your core user base… please?